I arrived at Ecite after 4-days module of body-mind gestalt therapy (BMGT) program by Arye Burshtein. In details and thoughtfully, those therapeutic days were about meeting with another human being and exceptional attention to space in-between us. For therapy purpose, of course.

And now I was on Ecite: many strangers from different countries, dancers, teachers, experienced practitioners.

My attention after the BMGT module was very focused on the meeting not only skin-to-skin but from inner human suchness. Meeting a new person from this position can be both exciting and vulnerable and scary and emotional. Touch quickly invites me and maybe other human beings into the space of intimacy. 

But we gathered here for a specific dance form, not for all these therapeutic presence and connection. 

How can I switch my attention? How Can I disconnect from the human aspect of the meeting and dive into pure physical form?

What if I will meet some new people and become closer to them? And in a week I will never see them again? Is it worth going into these territories? 

I do not know. Will see.

With all my questions I went to Arye, who is both therapist and dancer. In conversation, several valuable thoughts came.

In the practice of CI, there is indeed a selective decrease in sensitivity to the meeting of two individuals, when body-mind meets another body-mind. So far in pure CI form, from the perspectives of physicality, it's more about body meets another. 

I see now, that variability of sensitivity is a skill and a tool to adjust my perception for different contexts.

In CI practice, there is a lot of contact and interaction on the one hand. And according to the laws of the Tao and Shadow work, one manifested extreme makes stronger the other one, hidden - Loneliness, Solitude. 

Acknowledging Solitude invites waves of sadness — doors of sensitivity to the subtle, fleeting, beauty open.

After this conversation, which I cannot share in details, I went to the somatic lab, with an emphasis on embryonic development.

I find myself as a cell that belongs to something big and alive, which is part of the whole. And for which the question of Solitude does not exist. Even if I am alone, doing my job, or just lying, I remain part of an incomprehensible whole.

As a body-mind of modern human being, I know Loneliness.
The same I, with the same body-mind, directing attention through somatic to the origins of my life, live connecting with the most significant alive whole appears.

I reduce the sensitivity to the human-relational part, translate it into sensitivity to other layers of a life that occurs under the skin.
I recognize myself as more than Homo Sapiens. I am becoming a Homo (Latin) - being human.

As I wrote earlier, after the body-mind gestalt therapy module, I was puzzled at the CI conference. The fact that in contact improvisation sensitivity to the layer of human-human relations is shifted to the physical interaction layer - weight, supports, levers, inertia, and so on was surprising. How come this transition happens?

Recently, I met in Esther Perel book the term “sexual objectification.” It means the ability to objectify another human being so you can desire another person. 
Now I understand that in CI, we can talk about “dance objectification.” And it helps to switch attention from interpersonal layer to physicality.